I’m just floored that it’s already October. Where has the year gone? Why does it seem to go by so fast?
As time continues to march forward with such grace and speed, I’m finding myself way behind on some things that I’ve enjoyed. I’ve been stymied with writers block, that I believe comes from seeing my subscriber numbers jump with such incredible speed. I’ve felt like Marcia Brady in her first TV appearance.
Every time the red light comes on, my face glazes over with the “deer in the headlights” look.
I don’t know why I’m so nervous speaking to so many people. Maybe part of it is fear of something I write being wrong, or offending someone.
I know I shouldn’t care about these things, but my mother raised me to respect the feelings of others. Perhaps that was taken a bit too far. Now I care about the feelings of others to a fault, and that isn’t good.
From here forward, I intend on not caring as much about the feelings of others.
Erm, ok, perhaps that came out wrong. Perhaps I should restate that to read, “I intend on writing, and if I happen to offend someone, or if my writing is incorrect, it is ok. I’m sure plenty of people out there will correct me”.
I find it intriguing that my response to some success is to crawl back into my cave and peer out from the darkness wondering if anyone sees me. I know I don’t care to be popular or well known. I know that I hold myself back from being successful. Success always seem to carry with it a burden that just isn’t worth the trouble in some cases.
But in other cases, it comes with plenty of enjoyable things.
I’m going to do more rambling posts like this one, to try to break my writers block and grease the wheels a bit.
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Offend someone? Why you offend me with that. How could a blog about computer stuff offend anyone? Maybe it’s time to do a totally off the wall post. I’m running a series of those thanks to one Randal Graves. If anyone can get your mind going he can. Know any good programmer/computer jokes?
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Hahaha, Demeur I’ve missed you. I think you’re right. I need to reclaim my inner-madman (asshole, dip-shit, whatever) and have a little fun. I’ll have to swing by and check out your blog and see what you’ve been up to.
Hi Wayne – Nothing wrong with a bit of writers block… we’ve all been there. Heck mine was for two years, and I’m just getting back at it. I think it’s great that you care about what you write. tells me this will be a good blog to add to my reader
Cheers,
Heather
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Heather, thanks for the encouraging words! I never think of myself as a “writer” per se, but I’m consistently told that I seem to care about what I write, so there must be some truth to that, even if I don’t realize what I’m actually doing when I write is caring for my words. I just want them to be understandable, truthful and carry some deeper meaning.
I guess that is true for most people.
Awesome of you to swing by and drop me a message! Thanks!
Wayne – When in doubt, when writers block sits on your shoulder, what’s wrong with a little bit of Pink Floyd to get the juices flowing?
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