Believe you can and you’re halfway there. – Theodore Roosevelt

I’m going to be a dad soon…

…to a girl.

Mom is 9 months as of last Wednesday, and quite tired of carrying around the result of “what I did to her”.  We joke about it quite a bit actually.  I’ll look at her and tell her “Oh my god, you’re huge!”.

She knows I’m joking, and I tell her that I love her and that I think she’s more beautiful than before she was pregnant.

There is something about her carrying my child that make me love her even more.

I never thought it possible.  I mean, I was the guy that would never have children.  I was also the guy that would never get married. There’s nothing like a life-changing, mid-life crisis to really screw your mind around and change what you feel are your priorities in life. But, something happened a number of years ago that changed the core person that I was into something else.  Something ready to grow roots and raise a family.

When I realized that I had these motivations, it took me by surprise, to be honest.  Over the years I’ve had time to digest the reality of it all, what it means to me and others around me, and I love it.  For whatever reason I was not ready during the first 40 years of my life, but now I’m looking forward to it.

I’ve hurt many people in the past, and for that I am truly very sorry.  I carry the sadness of my actions with me each and every day.  There is nothing I can do to change the person that I was, or the things I’ve said and done.  For some, the chance for me to say I’m sorry has long since passed, and some others don’t care to hear a word of it.

What I feel matters is that I recognize who I was before and how I have impacted others lives for good or bad.

However, I can look forward to tomorrow with a smile, knowing that the direction I’m heading is one I have chosen with sound mind.  I’m ready to face the future and all that it has in store for me and my family.  I love them more than life itself, and I’ll do whatever it takes to make sure they know it each and every day.

I’m going to be a dad soon, and I can’t wait.


It’s all anyone needs to do to be successful.


If you don’t try, you are sure to fail.

If you do try, you allow yourself the chance of success.

If at first you don’t succeed, try again.

Try hard.

Try until you cry.

Try until you progress.

Try until you can no longer move forward.

Try harder.

When you give up in exasperation, try once more.

When all else fails, try something random.

Remember your why, then give it another try.

It’s all anyone needs to do to be successful.

Giving Facebook comments a whirl

One of the things that I wanted to do, but never got around to doing, was to blend the Disqus and Facebook comments plugins together into one.  I’d allow the user to choose which one they wanted to use, but the main feature would be to use both simultaneously, giving visitors the ability to choose which system they want to use.

Now, I don’t know what benefit might be derived from such a plugin other than the dual comment thing.  I purposefully excluded default WordPress comments from the equation since I felt, and I still feel today, that there is just too much programmatic spam that comes with it.  That isn’t to say that Disqus and the Facebook comment system doesn’t, because it does, I’m just saying that it seems to be more.  Of course, simply implementing the Facebook comments doesn’t hide the old WordPress comments.  There needs to be additional work to do that.

Always additional, unforeseen work to be done.

I ultimately decided to ditch the project because other projects would actually contribute to my pocketbook more.

Pretty scientific, eh?  Like I said in my prior post, I’m not being greedy, just particular as to where I spend my time. [click to continue…]